Na Antham is Anantham(One who has no end) - முடிவில்லாதவன் அனந்தராமன்
As the above Bhagavat Gita verse says we three of us (Rajasri, Subha and Ganesh) still feel that our father is still
- in the middle of us,
- around us,
- protecting us and
We are proud to have born to you appa. You lived just for us. we still remember you saying " I want happiness that is your (meaning three of us) happiness"
We wanted to share many things with you appa...but will just discuss within ourselves and with heavy heart we will close the dialog saying, we dont get that satisfaction of having shared with appa.
When Subha flew from London for Ganesh's wedding two days before the wedding she pulled everyone on the conference call and asked everyone..how can we all start without appa. we all started without you appa, you were missed more for this most awaited event of the family. Now Ganesh has two children you know.
We often watch Ganesh's Poonal video and Rajasri's wedding and do you think we all see the video smiling? Never....but still thanks to you appa for video coveraging even though it was not popular in those days(about 25 years ago), because of your interest in photography, you gave us this treasure which we cherish (for ever) for possessing your live activities.
Appa, do you remember, while going in the scooter with you Rajasri told you that 'she wanted to go in the car' while seeing a Maruthi car in signal. Now she herself drives. Ammu( kushbu as you call) she is doing her medicine. Our future family doctor. She has gained lots of appreciations for doing well in her studies. One more thing, she is using your Stethescope and the BP machine. Very proud of you daddy that you have thought through this well in advance and bought even before she was born.
In another instance with Subha on the scooter, she kept pushing you for want of more space. You said 'can I sit down and drive'. Whenever we recall this, there will be a smile on our face.
One more instance we often talk about is when someone used un reasonable words to Ganesh, you said 'My eyes will bleed if i see a tear drop in my son's eyes' - We do not know if anyone else can have a father like you. We strongly feel, believe and know that you are unique in this world. And no one else can be compared with you.
We have always admired your intelligence and knowledge. You could guide an electrical engineer, a civil engineer, a mechanical engineer and you have dictated affidavits for Rajasri...and your multilingustic talent...WOW ...a man (neighbour's envy and owner's pride) to be wondered at and you can see every single cell of ours exibiting that pride. When you guided Subha on the sag tension calculation while doing her tower designs...even Dr. Rajaraman wondered your knowledge. Your talent in managing business correspondences - we often browse through the letters you have written - we feel all your documents to be framed - the use of more appropriate words - we think, not any of us have similar talents...but very true as Ganesh says we three are your replica. Whatever you wanted to achieve you are doing through us. Your truthfulness, respect for elders(we have not seen you sitting on a chair in front of our grand father- that was not because he was authoritative, only due to the respect you had for him), dedication, trustworthiness - this quality is inbuilt in us too - its the same DNA daddy. And you already know we will not let you and amma down in any instance.
we know you will remember the statement 'daddy ko bachi' - subha used to call you. You will reply that ' its you'.
Appa do you remember this instance when you were looking for an alliance for Rajasri?
Rajasri: (Showing Udai Bir Saran Das in the DD- English news) Is it possible to get his horoscope?
Appa: Is he from North Arcot?
Rajasri: From North....not sure about Arcot.
And you know appa, now all three of us belong to North Arcot which you were very particular about.
We were so free and open talking to you appa. We can discuss anything with you and amma. You know very well we know our limits and will never get attracted at any other relationships which you have told us in many occassions - 'wherever my children go they will come back as my children'. This confidence give us more energy and is very much required for maintaining the relationships, may be thats the reason why we could be more open to both of you.
In another discussion between you and Rajasri
Rajasri: You are so struggling to get an alliance for me daddy, pesaama daavu adikkava?
Appa: Edo onnu pannumma en daavu theerardu.
Rajasri: If I do that, will you accept?
Appa: (Was very serious and said) I will commit suicide.
We all know the principles you lived with. You never wished to enjoy the salaries of your daughters but the greatness is you didnt even depend on Ganesh. You have told several times that 'என் அங்கைல இருக்கணும்- should never depend on anyone'. Yes, you made it appa. I have not seen you asking for anything to anyone. We had people coming and telling us that they have taken money and help in many ways from you but no one said, you owe them something.
During your last few weeks you were not able to make it to office and Ganesh just then started going to office after his graduation. You used to feel very bad that you are not accompanying him and you said 'அந்த குழந்தை கால்ல உக்காந்துடுவேனோ?'. Dont know why you felt so. Everyone is doing that. You need not have felt so. May be because of that your stress would have increased resulting in bad health. Otherwise you would have lived with us for some more time appa. You not only wished to stand on your legs, we feel that you also wanted us and blessed us so.Thats why you know daddy, all three of us are standing on our legs and are almost financially independent. Its the default property inherited from you appa. Appa, you are missed more each day.
We want you. We want to talk to you. We want to see you. We want to feel you. We want to serve you. We want to enjoy with you. WE WANT YOU DADDY.
Still appa, the 8 more years you lived with us after your massive attack is also a God's gift to us. Otherwise, we cant even think of our state without you, even before all of us could finish our college. Thank God and many thanks to you appa inspite of your bad health for still holding, guiding, and wishing us and these 8 years helped all of us to face this challenging world more confidently. Thanks to amma too having undergone the pressure, and the way she guided all of us including you. But dont know daddy, with a wife like amma who is so supportive especially during your trial periods, how you spoiled your health so badly. We often discuss that, of all we know you are the most luckiest to get a wife like amma. Extremely good in managing all the situations and giving us so much positive energy at all times and who can think of what next even at the worst times...SHE IS A BLESSING TO YOU and ofcourse to three of us. She is our strength.
At this moment we have one request to you. We all feel you should have atleast lived 10 more years with us. We request you to give those 10 years to amma in addition. Please check the underlined sentence. You should additionally grant her 10 years so that, we dont miss her in any of the events that will happen in the family. She is anywy your representative appa.
Appa, the general saying is உப்பும் தண்ணியும் ஊற ஊற எல்லாம் சரியாயிடும் - but
Appa, whenever you were sleeping, we four of us used to check if you are breathing. Its only because of the fear. We could never share this with you appa. Sometimes you woke up and asked us what are we doing? We were adviced not to discuss anything serious or anything which will overwhelm you. Amma romba paavam pa. She had to struggle and keep everything within herself.
(9 - Sep - 1936 to 27 - Oct - 1995)
- in the middle of us,
- around us,
- protecting us and
- watching us grow.
We are proud to have born to you appa. You lived just for us. we still remember you saying " I want happiness that is your (meaning three of us) happiness"
We wanted to share many things with you appa...but will just discuss within ourselves and with heavy heart we will close the dialog saying, we dont get that satisfaction of having shared with appa.
When Subha flew from London for Ganesh's wedding two days before the wedding she pulled everyone on the conference call and asked everyone..how can we all start without appa. we all started without you appa, you were missed more for this most awaited event of the family. Now Ganesh has two children you know.
We often watch Ganesh's Poonal video and Rajasri's wedding and do you think we all see the video smiling? Never....but still thanks to you appa for video coveraging even though it was not popular in those days(about 25 years ago), because of your interest in photography, you gave us this treasure which we cherish (for ever) for possessing your live activities.
Appa, do you remember, while going in the scooter with you Rajasri told you that 'she wanted to go in the car' while seeing a Maruthi car in signal. Now she herself drives. Ammu( kushbu as you call) she is doing her medicine. Our future family doctor. She has gained lots of appreciations for doing well in her studies. One more thing, she is using your Stethescope and the BP machine. Very proud of you daddy that you have thought through this well in advance and bought even before she was born.
In another instance with Subha on the scooter, she kept pushing you for want of more space. You said 'can I sit down and drive'. Whenever we recall this, there will be a smile on our face.
One more instance we often talk about is when someone used un reasonable words to Ganesh, you said 'My eyes will bleed if i see a tear drop in my son's eyes' - We do not know if anyone else can have a father like you. We strongly feel, believe and know that you are unique in this world. And no one else can be compared with you.
We have always admired your intelligence and knowledge. You could guide an electrical engineer, a civil engineer, a mechanical engineer and you have dictated affidavits for Rajasri...and your multilingustic talent...WOW ...a man (neighbour's envy and owner's pride) to be wondered at and you can see every single cell of ours exibiting that pride. When you guided Subha on the sag tension calculation while doing her tower designs...even Dr. Rajaraman wondered your knowledge. Your talent in managing business correspondences - we often browse through the letters you have written - we feel all your documents to be framed - the use of more appropriate words - we think, not any of us have similar talents...but very true as Ganesh says we three are your replica. Whatever you wanted to achieve you are doing through us. Your truthfulness, respect for elders(we have not seen you sitting on a chair in front of our grand father- that was not because he was authoritative, only due to the respect you had for him), dedication, trustworthiness - this quality is inbuilt in us too - its the same DNA daddy. And you already know we will not let you and amma down in any instance.
we know you will remember the statement 'daddy ko bachi' - subha used to call you. You will reply that ' its you'.
Appa do you remember this instance when you were looking for an alliance for Rajasri?
Rajasri: (Showing Udai Bir Saran Das in the DD- English news) Is it possible to get his horoscope?
Appa: Is he from North Arcot?
Rajasri: From North....not sure about Arcot.
And you know appa, now all three of us belong to North Arcot which you were very particular about.
We were so free and open talking to you appa. We can discuss anything with you and amma. You know very well we know our limits and will never get attracted at any other relationships which you have told us in many occassions - 'wherever my children go they will come back as my children'. This confidence give us more energy and is very much required for maintaining the relationships, may be thats the reason why we could be more open to both of you.
In another discussion between you and Rajasri
Rajasri: You are so struggling to get an alliance for me daddy, pesaama daavu adikkava?
Appa: Edo onnu pannumma en daavu theerardu.
Rajasri: If I do that, will you accept?
Appa: (Was very serious and said) I will commit suicide.
We all know the principles you lived with. You never wished to enjoy the salaries of your daughters but the greatness is you didnt even depend on Ganesh. You have told several times that 'என் அங்கைல இருக்கணும்- should never depend on anyone'. Yes, you made it appa. I have not seen you asking for anything to anyone. We had people coming and telling us that they have taken money and help in many ways from you but no one said, you owe them something.
During your last few weeks you were not able to make it to office and Ganesh just then started going to office after his graduation. You used to feel very bad that you are not accompanying him and you said 'அந்த குழந்தை கால்ல உக்காந்துடுவேனோ?'. Dont know why you felt so. Everyone is doing that. You need not have felt so. May be because of that your stress would have increased resulting in bad health. Otherwise you would have lived with us for some more time appa. You not only wished to stand on your legs, we feel that you also wanted us and blessed us so.Thats why you know daddy, all three of us are standing on our legs and are almost financially independent. Its the default property inherited from you appa. Appa, you are missed more each day.
We want you. We want to talk to you. We want to see you. We want to feel you. We want to serve you. We want to enjoy with you. WE WANT YOU DADDY.
Still appa, the 8 more years you lived with us after your massive attack is also a God's gift to us. Otherwise, we cant even think of our state without you, even before all of us could finish our college. Thank God and many thanks to you appa inspite of your bad health for still holding, guiding, and wishing us and these 8 years helped all of us to face this challenging world more confidently. Thanks to amma too having undergone the pressure, and the way she guided all of us including you. But dont know daddy, with a wife like amma who is so supportive especially during your trial periods, how you spoiled your health so badly. We often discuss that, of all we know you are the most luckiest to get a wife like amma. Extremely good in managing all the situations and giving us so much positive energy at all times and who can think of what next even at the worst times...SHE IS A BLESSING TO YOU and ofcourse to three of us. She is our strength.
At this moment we have one request to you. We all feel you should have atleast lived 10 more years with us. We request you to give those 10 years to amma in addition. Please check the underlined sentence. You should additionally grant her 10 years so that, we dont miss her in any of the events that will happen in the family. She is anywy your representative appa.
Appa, the general saying is உப்பும் தண்ணியும் ஊற ஊற எல்லாம் சரியாயிடும் - but
When we talk about you or think of you, the heaviness in the heart is just the same as the last day we saw you and you were taken away from us.
Appa, we begged Dr. Ayyappan to save you and give you back to us. We told that we can even take you home bed ridden. The very feeling that you are alive would have given us so much strength. You could have guided Ganesh, just sitting at home. This loss he is not able to bear appa. He definitely needed and still needs your help and support. Appa, whenever you were sleeping, we four of us used to check if you are breathing. Its only because of the fear. We could never share this with you appa. Sometimes you woke up and asked us what are we doing? We were adviced not to discuss anything serious or anything which will overwhelm you. Amma romba paavam pa. She had to struggle and keep everything within herself.